Tag: Thoughtfulness for the Self.

[still is.] -sam. (imo)

Forget about all your snacks.

I try to readily embraced besides quick fixes in the morning on the way to the bathroom.

Finally cold enough to lounge in it and the terrycloth other one is more subjugated as my getting-out-of-the-bath towel.

New water heater on the way.. you know what that means… No hot water currently.

The Han and dirtbaths and wipedown-epiphanies have hailed me as – prepared.

Only to see the commode whittled down into high water and flooding in the area ; not my super sincere and stark prodocession into extremely talented plumbing-to-plunging works. At least they put down the good mats in case I get cancer sick.

And I think of his hand in toilet bowl dangling over the rim shameful stance. I call it “The First Trimester of Cancer” when you get sick and throw up all the time. But if you scream “I can’t stop vomiting every morning and midnight bathroom break.”

[people may worry and think you’re going to die. I mentioned I had cancer in the house recently ‘ ‘seizures are in the brain..gets worse. Brain Cancer. Does it not make sense??’ ‘

I’ve had it since I was 3. People Remember the Past. Greetings, believe it or not.] I just said “People don’t like to mention it because it gets worse. The stress of people knowing and prying  their business and not believing you to pitying and thinking you’re lying because you’re still the human being you’ve been this whole time with all the same problems and you think you know what’s best for me and how to treat it..not so. That’s why I don’t eat everything. I’m gonna get sick and spend all day in that bathroom,.. whichever way it comes out of. No insults to someone’s food or food I used to eat all the time ☹️😮‍💨😠🤕😶..]

I let myself rest (today. since this early morning.) then I think of all the cooking. Blessed.. with name brands and frozen meals?

[Groceries Trips + Gifts thank God. I earned the good chicken tendies. Flat & Packed. Yay.☺️🤞🏼 Thank you 🥹.] 2 BOTTLES OF OJ THANK YOU DAILY VITAMIN C DOSE INDEED (damn after I just took a chewable tablet and wet my eyes with homemade saline. Cough Rag. Never forget your hanky bullshit. I’ll shit rocks Timothy

Enough editor notes.] Coney Island BeerronOnion Rings 🫶🏼 and I asked for fries and a fry plate! What a delivery. Fairstand and NotCrispyIntheSlightest. No lawsuits onCrunch that way. Hmm. Shard to the Esophagus and I haven’t been speaking up much and correcting myself.

I miss singing to my music.

There I said it.)) zerosug energy drinks included and swindled ⛈️}

[GARLIC BREAD 2 BOXES I FORGOT ABOUT IT.

like these mfs can read the future. I was in bed saying I’ll make pasta with just onion and garlic if I’m hungry enough and wanna rank that shit. Already debating on one pot or how everyone makes it. Meat, no meat? Chicken Parm? Fuck, a request. Cutlet or pan? Cutlet. Goawdamn it. I hate the work and I don’t like it much and no cheese. A likely verdict tomorrow – pasta sauced penne & garlic bread textus toast and the ily.but-argument about meat with pasta. Lan Italiana vs Sicilians love the next argument; may we prep 🤝🏼 for tomorrow’s lunch. 😇🫸🏼🫷🏼 may there be only slight-to-no arguments..amen…]

I have this one appeal about myself: if you feel shitty about yourself. Eat a prepared meal product even if you could’ve made a version yourself. The Air-Fryer Love Rejoices.

You’ll somehow feel like you treated yourself and not judge yourself so harshly.

Makes me think of every “weightloss-bootcamp” show I’ve thought of. And there was one about chefs. And they never cooked at home before a lot of them.

Just a job?

You can make decent food but never found love for it…?

Well that makes me sad.

And I forget I’m a writer besides food and never felt so bloathoardedcelebrity to this day. “I’m so fucking famous and not rich!” The best type of paprazzi-meruser+and getaway_er. Baseless.

And anyone trying to pawn off it for millennia to most recent: can suck a dick. Most indeed.

Like they’d get any.

I feel shitty and hormonal and this ice cream cone was well deserved.

      [[“I know a girl that deserves an ice cream cone right about now”

-hadnt eaten one yet but seen and finished the meal to be found I pushed myself into starving-depths to sleep all day after about 8am this morning. 3am again.

*holding a plunger and on my toes with my knees crossed and bent at an angle trying to divulge and gander at whether it was the river flooding or shit pipes since the -water heater went out-*

‘hm I’m just trying to see if it’s the river high or me nie at good things one doesn’t want to do [i.e. plunging a stocked toilet someone just left.]

Some of my greatest shames.

Make it a cannonball episode.

Ice Cream Cone just saved me fucking life, bruhther. [all this time later; like 3 hours and 16 minutes ago. @ 03:15am.]

And eventually after that it’s 03:30am.

Every time I eat frozen food I think of the leftovers and frozen takes of favorites or the question from zan huasteintine if we eat frozen, prepacked food.

Frozen Pepperoni Pizza Pockets make me vomit.enguessee making me think of my junky alcoholic 5 bottles to sleep and 2 cases to think -about what to make for dinner- and an eighth before dinner just to agree about it. [middle school and my freshman year leaving public school 😮‍💨😮‍💨 not everyone grew up sheltered? per-say.. or on sainthood jump-street and I’ve been given g-2pilot for secret unlocked sword after, well I fell. And renounced my faith. Here I am now, talking about it bout 10 years later in notion. They didn’t exist the first 3 being 13s.] (But I think of you and still crave the Pretzel Bread Chicken Hatch Chili Cheese somethings and Ham & Cheese ones. Traditional to the closest in origin-bounty huh? Can’t believe you followed me in my old first personal Instagram I made when I was 15. I got there late. And you found me and many others. It’s nice when I see our little tales of each other on tv. I thought I was getting poly-cheated on when people would bring up their wife. 😦😦😧😯😲oH! And nastiness avoiding someone for like 7 years like I usually do, and they just called..referred to me? As that? Thought of me as their wife? I had no idea we were dating. No officials but no time nor sentiments recanted. Bald white guys with Hispanic names rock. So does letting me paint ur graffiti walls. Closing or whatever nowadays.

I wish I could convince myself to open a restaurant one day.

Then I think of the ones still and are-open and I don’t know what I’m worrying about.

Shitty Person or Shitty Chef?

(both. humbly.)

You’re a good person, means you’re a great cook. Simply 😁.

(I’ll take urwhurds for it.)]

Grumpy, pregnant eternally and all these new fertilized eggs combos. Too old to really carry.

You want kids?

Give them time.

And now there’s no rush between me and my exes.

Let someone else do the hard work.

The eggbabies choose when they wanna be ready. Twins + 2 Sets of Twin technicality Quadruplets for always.

The Oz and Hazes be straight chilling and perfect.

Imagine the galacticstardust pieces of shit born.

Better than Outlaw Shit? Oh hell nah. (easily.)

“The galactic star is just the origin and the blessing.

Yeh got fucked by her taste in men.

And those who won’t whittle to ponder on coming back.

(hey.)

Said what I said.

And now we gots this tribe.

(I hate not being protestant sometimes and then I remember I was an atheist-buddhist before I joined some-typeo.church like you guys asked. It’s not enough.)

We’re missionaries dontcha know?? 🤠🤓😎🫰🏼👃🏼🕶️🧊👄🫦😏[😒me.]🚽🪠😪(as in spit.(tobaccospit.))😁😏..-.🫠.

(👁️👁️🚽💧🫧💩🪠)

..;😉. *sigh starts plunging and I hold the snake*

Long Ago: “If you won’t be a camp counselor anymore you have to get a job, dear. ‘i didn’t expect it to be a plumber and h-vac assist trainee then deputy for the law enforcement crew you made up for special agents as my summer freshman year job 😐 well you’re so smart, you might as well try the vocational stuff while you can. dear.” In case I go to jail and likely end up in prison?’ “I’m priming DEA and by next Juneteenth sweetie you’ll be ATF if you just fuck up enough I, – I,

I, uh –

I think you have what it takes to be sent to a Men’s Prison as a Biological-Female due to -notice-of-danger and -authority-threat-level a long with..knowing us. If you just really believe in yourself sweetie and renounce nuclearnormanways and become the piece of shit you love in all of us – in what you know this family of rag tag non-heroes to be: you could go all the way to uc and top secret, honey 🙂😄😁😃😅🥳🥰

‘suppose I’ll have to try and get away from all that hippie wannabe junkie shit huh Harold and just let myself fly as an educational intelligent and not just an artist on drugs?’

“*face melts* 😊👮🏻‍♂️ “you get it sweetie.”

And that’s how you raise ghosts of your own hell and purgatory of escape + and not talking when people from your past show up and you decide to watch Dexter with them. I always think it’s 9 seasons not 8 and don’t remember how Hannah ties into Harrison and Vogel. It’s been so many years. And so many times I’ve watched.

It’s like my own life of “get fucked or I’ll get you out the circle active.” Lifestyle of Agency has caught up to me.

Bloated Preggney Belly

And I got mf onion rings an air fryer session away.

I did will with the Augustine ones to usher in September.

3 weeks in and we decide to do it.

Never late.

Right on time.

Good with numbers for all them, not just 1.

I prefer Zer0.

Cap’N bringing da Elk not just The Beef.

Busy with life so quickly, eh?

Like waking out a misty crypt icey freeze if a gust for no chicken wings or dentyneia ice.

Love it ☺️😄😌.