As forgiveness runs fluid I find myself looking forward to what the new year could bring. Harsh difficulties, max stress, many hospitalizations..I took some time away in 2024. Just to see what 2025 looks like. Turning 25 the quarter century breakdown but I got past 23 with the skin of my teeth same with 21 and 19.
Maybe it takes and on/off pounce for me. Treat everything like a business season.
And maybe then this will be the good year. The one I hop off on the right step. One Goal I’ve been able to obtain is the Medicaid Expansion so I now qualify and am able to receive my seizure medication along with some other things that help.
I’ve learned to relax and it wasn’t until a nurse recently shared it seemed I’d been doing better on the medication. Not ready to pounce always looking for something to do “like I mean it when you want to get busy you surely envelope your self.” And I said at home I’m a writer so my job doesn’t really stop because I’m out the house. I still need to keep up the creativity. It doesn’t go away just keeps building or is stalled..waiting for the right moment and perhaps 2025 is my year. Everyone knows my secrets, I get recognized in town, what else to do but start owning it. I hate the misconception of when I walk up I’m going to be a bitch to someone or pull something on them; I’m not but I’ve seen the anxiety or awkwardness and just like “that your name ma’am for real?” And I never thought I’d get that. Celebrity from Writing. And I try to convince myself I don’t know how 1s work and how I’ve read my stats for awhile. Let alone other numbers. I’ve learned a lot and this is the business I’ve always wanted. Free of Paper, no time to look for recycling haha. Just keep doing it, Sam. I’ll tell myself that.
And I think I’ll be the much wiser and much kinder and honest to know this is the good thing to do, and error load and pull the snobbish things I do. Quitting Social Media was a blessing in my life and somehow my business still flows and nourishes without me knowing what’s going on over there. It was getting something, everything referred to me..whatever the compatreons of the social media server I was using could come up with I was seeing and I just really didn’t need it anymore. Cut ties, sew my eyes blind. That’s always been the motto 😆🥴😄.
I know I deserve a better year..there we go and I proved it to myself.
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