I could answer in all my affairs why I’m so fucking bored of fighting.

One Dialect about Sam: if your only complaint to even keep me integrated into a conversation in sparking to dismal/at-below: one. I simply won’t give you attention.

and even facet of why I’m a prick could be concerning, but furthermore. My ragtag gang of non-heroes is depressed grieving a death that feels like it doesn’t exist by 10:18pm and I forget Johnny’s dead until I’m sitting at my panetone mint.applique mini fridge of supremeities and wonders. I, and many others not knowing nor capable to understand how I function on a one-shelf system.

then I remember I’m not sitting on his lap and only the -im-a-blind-individual thatknowshowtolove&date despite the sociopathy; the blindness.

how sad. I gotta butt smooth and paddle my flopperskiddidooddlydooopkipyyyuupuss.

to know that that man is not behind me and I’m not sitting in his lap and that’s what feels wrong.

the ways my blindness has been parlayed against me. “They don’t exist. Who were you with? Whose in your room?”

someone that doesn’t give a fuck about you. (was 12 year olds in 2012 year old Sam).

I wasn’t wrong but the perfumed scent of my own concoction of the wax warmer plate being stumbled into (use the ceramic part( and aiming for just scented water. Then ginger splash sugarscrubb burned. But damn smells like me new prep scrub.

And I think it’s his cologne everywhere I go. I made that wax warmer combo why is it him.

wander around some more samantha and I’m the one that has it most together!!

Just expect myself to go first outpatient meeting tomorrow. I’ve been very good with medication..it’s in bottles no planner bc I want to keep up with the labels. I notice it’s mostly neurological and already thinking of time ratios, add ons, and end bends. And I discuss with colleagues in my field, family or otherwise for being an adopted individual and we have an amazing outpatient case going on.

And my Patient Caseload to Caseis’ is.. well they’re my family, you see.

And the second most professional is my big bro blood spATTERNOTSPLATTer fucking autocorrect.

And I am simply.

forensic.

And he; The Forencisist.we don’t get to pick out our job fields or how they’re spelled. 8 words to One. We did all those. Am I so proud him like ultra yes incredibly so.

And I think of all the pain of enduring “talking to the other side” and all your prostitutes turned sex change adopted someone else’s whore kids of abandonment and bastardom; ::: god, we did great with what we could, Tim. Those kids know how to fucking love. They’re independent. And they don’t shit where they eat. And know how to caulk floorboards, and! clean em, prep, and aftercare polish + shine too. ☺️.

I always use 3 emojis like top 3 and that’s because of my big brothers honestly. And I do a Fascismile Venn-Diagram. Like those memes. The Nic Cage-Adam Sandler – Keanu – Johnny one gets me the most.

darn kids 😎😏🤗.

imissyoujohnny.

sit in my lap, fuck me . I’m gonna regret that in all my most humble shame and shame about my other disorder. crockme in slippers and call me a wailer true.

and that’s what Wilsons’ do when they make verbal-chutney instead of word salad, fondue, or bleu cheese.moldy about it you fucking prick.

Alright at least it wasn’t morbid to notionsofdeath.

I want fondue so fucking bad.

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Oh, Dear.?? You think they’ve caught onto t-the reason we’re always snazzed out in glassesaroonies at military/ work.. and black black goldtone-tunggesten,rimmssed. shadey-shadeys:sunnies alwaysanywherelse. is that we”re

blind.?

prove we pay less attention. first.

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that fucking movie.