(I never got married under this name but kept the name while undercover shit to investigate his family..what was my orphan ass thinking fuck.} that’s what commitment looks like.
even if it fails. [-again+again.]
I’m running out on running on fumes and caring about getting hurt from the same disappointments that caused you/whoever to stop coming around anyways.
call it callousness if grief so to say. . the ultimate tie-cutter. we’ve both been exonerated and whatever nastiness was spewing before the temperance of niceties in grief.. what’s left?
same old same old
like every other time we’ve tried
?
yes.
what else to break but finite thinnities knowing a family revoked from without error and always on accord. outcast . plexiglass peruser and you have no other attention but the pain and the lack of pain! The lack of argument! The lack of debacle to care! And dismal drifts to I don’t even see when you come in inallmyblindness to sit on the cornerof the bed. Stopped smirking at you crooner smiling at me.
this poly love bullshit.
I’m a sociopath! Maybe under normal accords of a mentally short-formmed average person of any stature especially mentally?
emotional and all those other capabilities.
just bored with it dude.
what else you want me to do: be mad and cause a scene and swear vengeance on your name and make a public display severing your closest friendship and deepest community ties?
like every other girl around here [in Jacksonville.?]
And that’s hows I counsel Marines that tell me their gym bro status-in-woes when I was undercover selling ; novelty enhancement usage(er.things.woof a backstory how I got into that business; another DJ Story Quite Actually my good sir!! Of Inheritance ahuh.ashauahyes 🧐🧐😄)
___ya can’t tell me dignity, wasnt part of the sacrifice, In my Career. [anything for my marines.. at least I taught you how to dress 3 years of purposefully shabby dresses in eid culture to tuned to STREETWEAR y Skate-tor-o. ur gonna keep that your whole life kid. even when during and in-between people treating ya bad emotionally. Least They Could Do is bully me on dressing poor now and imm gonna dress nice+poor.]
Fine-Tuned.
Put-Together.
Always refreshing [just means Self-Care maintenance to healthy hygienic standards. (harder to get to in a depressed mind huh. avoiding the house for bathroom breaks?)
and suddenly one could remember : household instability isn’t just memories of closing your door and not wanting to come out when you’re a kid.. it could look like being 67 trapped with someone else’s mistake while I’m negating their mistakes bc they repeat the mistakes they’ve made.]
C‘est La Viean, Kid: this is aging in a world that always moves forward. tick a story for someone that can’t relate compared to one that wouldn’t be able to just get – ✋🏼 your comment isn’t necessary.
no one comments anywhere; not on here at least. notwhereicouldevenseeit.
it’s lonely in the single digit numbers.
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