I don’t know what I’m doing as I’m grappling it’s a holiday I’m here for. Christmas but I was gone for Thanksgiving and we didn’t have one anyways. Oddness to witness and say. I never make em all but at least I’m here when I do. Spreading Joy, keeping up conversation. Which sometimes is just joy as it is. Not many people speak up. Instead of lonely cavaliers at their stations. No hesitations. Are they family or not? And that’s how conversation goes.