What is the flight of proposition, when one is facing their fears? This subtle hint in the right direction, and I usually choose no. I decline, even when the people I care most about offer to help me in Life. I think ultimately, it’s a trust issue. That’s why I’ve restarted therapy. Why I aim to operate with Clarity and Live Honesty. Live and breathe it, form into my brain as I’ve come to realize the one I’ve deceived the most is ultimately – myself. The same fruition to push forward, split by indecision and lack of self-acceptance. A “fugue state” in minimalist maximalization in my entire life spectrum of being. I suppose it happened for Good Fate and Greater Faith. In that, I suppose I’m just human when it comes down to it. I choose to downplay yes, I don’t share my greatest adventures in conversation, though I’ve gotten back to sharing and reflecting with many jokes with the great loves of my life and my best friends; in order to understand there’s much more I can do and be accomplished in my greater-state of waking living. I don’t need to travel halfway across the world to see the sun shining when it’s 3am in my home-living town- I could just look in the mirror and smile and feel the same effect, all-the-same / jacraimya minto ito.
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