Absolution as I wondered in what was already considered adult hood in legalities; I had fundamentally understood that the process of the workforce or upholding standards for the economy as a righteous citizen [no model included] formulated an ethic into. Blindsiding-myself. I used to say that all the time as a kid. I could go about any real manner and be “the one with the strategy” the “girl with ethics” the “manager-onsite” the “flyest-highest in the coup” never really a debutante. I’m 23 and I’ve never been to a house party and I go out every couple of years or to the bar or get spirits with my sashimi for my birthdays. Of all my daliencies; Intuition is what bore-it-.
Going with the flow was obseletion in tow for some juvenile running a show;
Trial + Market Structure was the most competitive came of Operation I’ve ever seen – and I studied Phlebotomy for Givings-Structure. Woof.
Metaphysical and I was branded some goth queen and other rude-adept-complimentaries- were not to my liking nor satisfaction.
How many times did i get told I was talking too much while I was working. Choking on carbon dioxide; diver lungs is too obvious.
Comm? Com’on . I just wanted to feel Solidarity in my community.
In 7’s – the Writer chooses to rest.
I’m just sad no one has wanted to share Wits with me or Contact me.
Of all the pieces I write of family n community; not a single message ever. The comments keep me going; and I re-read and try to understand myself. Time moves quickly and I gave myself 4 years to wrap up 20 worth and remember the first 4 ; parenthesis and mis-givings of time spent included. Learn as ya go. Wrap up and ya leave. Take time to breath. {I put the headphones on and play puzzles on my phone. (besides writing most of the time.) I didn’t feel lonely. But what is it to feel glorious of new nostalgia I never looked at before, and find myself in The New. Great song, by Interpol. — Therefore, Deftones is on. Back to roots-. What else could ya do. I finally sat, got to writing to share, on my reusable-ulta-delux-death-bed. Living through it some how or just resuccessitating from a deep meditative state -no-coma:here. Sometimes you just acclimate after a life of pursuit and trial and natural elevation is there. I’m a coder. Animation, gaming, littlle thangs; doesn’t matter. IT is obvious, Communication is Obvious, Admin is obvious to the others that know it. Still spilling my beans and now the Director working-Comedy is writing for an after show. 2 packs changed to Vapes but my mom offered to buy me a pack. I smoked 6 month old 2 loose-luckies on memorial.day weekend to prepare for the business. Told my glory stories; what else to do but commit to memory my commitment to community and service-branche.d. Especially; either way. I laid in my bed and took time to just lounge without studying a tv or movie. Turn off the RBG lights ffs. The melatonin hits instantly when I turn those off and my plant light Hiaashsi (My Bonsai Tree Son) and Othello (My Desrt Air Plant Dachshund statuette (it nearly died while I was in-hospital away for 6 days but I like curly hair too dude; I’ve been getting natural._]]
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